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seemingly a cozy holiday season.


a strange dream. ^last night I visited my son &had good time immersed together in video games. this dawn dreamed with my cousin, Zhuwusong, in our hometown village, Zhudajiu, voluntarily donate blood. then I visit a digital tech company, impressed by their digital door keeper gears, inc computers managed card reading, and 3D animation workstations, which is my previous job. then with the cousin leaded by teachers or group, we voluntarily donate sperm. we dissected fields and choose woman in it. I managed to pick healthy and attractive woman for breeding but the cousin let me hurry. the dorm's water heat again less satisfactory, chilled me up. Its a peaceful sunny morning now. God, bring sanity to my son's living environment. bring sooner my Royal China to allow me home my son, and my sons and daughters arriving.


warrenzh's first skate in 2012. ^ this weekends reunion sweeter in our hearts, for I told my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, that I prepared to live him alone with me, away from his mom's dirty and poisonous seductive home life. last Friday afternoon I visit my son when his school is in break. my son was arranged by his mom to do homework while the bitch grandma, herself a dummy stone intelligently, supervised my son. I so picked to busy on my notebook away till found the cheap grandma selling sexually to my son. so I hauled &scorned &cursed. my son soon quit his homework and played pc games with me and made proud progress in it. in the night in my dorm, I saw my son's dirty environment, so I made a decision to allow my son choose if live under my custody, in my shabby dorm room. in the weekends we ate beef noodle warrenzh chosen, showered in the public bathroom he picked. I urged times and times that in God's world he obliged to nobody, liable to nobody around him serving him. he several times let me shut up but God knows its clearer those freaky women back to what hell they from. In Sunday afternoon it starts to snow again so warrenzh went to skate as his mom suggested. he had good time on the ice ground. God, isn't it saved and blessed?
these days I also dreamed of my kid brother several times, reviewing our brotherhood in dream. this morning I again dreamed of Nankai Univ, where I attending a seminar and trying present my thesis. quite some alumni appeared there in my dawn dream. God, grant us a happy Christmas holiday, enrich our life with due season gifts. God, bring sooner my Royal China.


memorable weekends reunion. ^ last weekend descended after I looked forward it for more than a week. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, descended to visit my QRRS dorm, first time after salary's shrink. we dined in KFC, also a toast stick from nearby restaurant where I last time rebuffed for loan to eat there. of cause we played video games. my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, shown likeness to stay with me, which let me sorry, and his mom's short of hospitality. last night I watched a Taiwan loving idol TV episode lately near 1am, burningly touched by spirit and inspiring faith of love in the story. God, u show me the merit of American and Japanese girls. God, so many meanings in the show for my concerns. God, allow me do more things i liked to make life better around me and people in my life. God, dad, thx u for this brilliant morning sunshine, and bring sooner my Royal China, so as to allow me home my son, my sons and daughters to arrive, in ur shine&grace cozily. Thx dad.


dreamed of sky-skiing with son. ^ dreamed my grand father eyes on us all time, with love. I fought in team of my dearest son against pests, like the video game we played last dusk. then we damaged something of my neighbor's, likely in my hometown, Zhudajiu village. then we skyskiing with hot air balloon. son steers while i hanged under my son. near before landing I was allowed to pilot it, and landing near our town. God, son's mom plotting against my weekends reunification with my son, God, thrust the evil, deflate it. grant me new shoes in the winter, son's ebook reader before year end. thx, God dad, bring me sooner my Royal China and show my son the true family life we deserve.


2nd snow in winter. ^ yesterday I enjoyed video game with my son so immersed. on way to dine out, I told him why girl Lv will be my first wife: the first girl, LvSongya, descended to honor me by visiting my family in my life back to my junior middle school. after showered, we found 2nd snow shallowly covered the ground. so I told my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, story of my eldest sister, ZhuXuezhen (means essence of snow in Chinese), who committed suicide when I was a junior middle school student by jumping into Yangtze River in deep dawn, likely after dispute with her husband. I admire her so much and proud of her, like our grand father did. in the night in dorm, my favorite TV series, "The good wife", telling a law suit of suicide. God, u know how I gracious I am in ur arms. God, dad, so many people, esp ur first kid and ur 3rd son, witness and benefit from ur Goodness. God, this morning I again dreamed with my son, warrenzh, so harmoniously. he covered me again in dream lingering. God, bring me sooner my Royal China in shine of God!


dreamed of genius. ^ yesterday admitted to my son its my fault to unease with him who under God's guide, for after compared myself, grateful &intact even after dishoner God put on me trapped in asylum 4 times and a pare of infectious eyes. son likely welcome it heartedly. in dawn dreamed of a proven kid genius, who calculates big math question easily. later found the young genius in fact my dearest son, who turned so friendly to me and protected me with his smartness. its a pale morning, but God, I look forward ur promise, grant us a ebook reader, bring closer my Royal China.

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shiny start over decaying delay.


pale morning. ^ this dawn I had a long dream, in which my 2nd elder sister gossiped with me, teasing daughter and son of our eldest brother's. after getup, I reviewed 2 professors, both dog, still in Nankai Univ, where I was abused when I sought degree there. this week I first time in the winter put on woolen pants and felt well. yesterday Obama won his 2nd session as American President and today sinful CCP open its 18th national party congress. God, u let us endure and see through the devil's play. God, we all look forward to ur choice, no matter how harsh it was. God, grant me let go my worn out shoes, grant my son a Kindle paperwhite ebook reader in year end 2012! these days I was buffeted by foreseeable weakening economy in PRC, God, save my Royal China among blizzard upon sinking PRC sieged by ghost of Marxism, or spies of Russian. God, bring me sooner my Royal China!


dreamed of Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan. ^ I blog it at 4:49AM: I clearly dreamed of Asoh, my 2nd wife from Japan, with who we study politics in Nankai Univ together for a year back to 2000 or so when I pursued master degree there. Asoh in dream very kind to kid, esp our son. she really got me home in dream. God, u witness how I honored. thx, God dad.


dreamed again my troubled campus. ^ dreamed in dawn I got already passport for master degree. for discreet I didn't bring it with me when I was accompanied by my good friend (my dearest son? ) and my kid brother visiting Wuhan University, where I was enrolled. the campus quite big and crowded and I inspired by my campus life in veiw. but unfortunately we blocked by administrator of master degree candidates dorm, who asked to check in my passport. that was quite frustration, but better than my haunting nightmare that my academic record went bankrupted. Its to be a sunny morning. God, thx for the vivid dream.


dreamed of playing harmoniously with son.^ recently too many beautiful moments with my son immersed in pc games, also more exhausted on bed before getup. this dawn dreamed in my hometown village, zhudajiu, where son of my cousin's wedding ceremony holding. our family blood related even but hatred &disgust thicken between. the bride insisted counting on me and my kid brother while the bridegroom resentful to us. later dreamed my son with me trying tighten loose cogs with toolbox I gathered from online shopping and reward of a voluntary blood donation, with my lead. Its almost first time my son so harmoniously accompanies me without my notice. we really enjoy our gatherings more and more in the Autumn and winter. God, bring me my Royal China soon, grant my son a ebook reader. in this early morning I bestow ur promise, dad.


dreamed of the new Nobel literature winner.^ last afternoon I saw my son returned from his mom's hometown journey and fine, after waited near 2 hour outdoor. we played games. I told my son my salary decreased this month and urged him to be prepared for coming hard time in Chinese economy. we showered and relaxed. this dawn dreamed of the first record Nobelist literature, Moyan (means no say or no disclose literally in Chinese), the disgusting bureaucracy and star propaganda of CCP, from lying and shamelessly conceited PRC. in dream he chased & threaten crowd, likely inc me in dream, in aiming not to uncover his dark records or history of his life. Its a sunny morning now, God, grant us an elegant life, esp. enjoyable food &dinner, grant my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, a Kindle paperwhite ebook reader. God, bring me sooner my Royal China and prosperous Royal China!


dreamed of Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan.^ son's mom this noon brought him to join a marriage celebration in her hometown. I felt sleepy, and dozed after trying busy some time. dreamed of Asoh Yukiko attending me. she is so courteous. her mother and my mother also appeared in dream. the dream last quite some time but when I setup to blog it, its vivid avoids me now. its a sunny day, esp. the afternoon when I napped. God, grant my son a kindle paperwhite ebook reader. bring me my Royal China, and my sons and daughters.


1st snow in winter 2012. ^ It drizzled since last noon. I ate full in QRRS canteen &satisfied. then I visit son as scheduled. his school breaks in Tuesday afternoon. the rain wet my shoes and baptized me. my son and me made proud progress in game "borderlands 2". in the night returned to my dorm, I thanks given in reviewing, from Heaven, from my son. the night I enjoyed watching American TV series, in which sound American law system demonstrates so detailed &clear. in dawn dreamed my family and my passed father, God in Heaven now. I likely at least have 4 daughters, 2 sons & a grandson in the age in the dream. we had a business, selling something on the street. my grand father cared my grandson, who is so lovable, kindly. &this morning when son's mom called in about her wireless mouse, I found snow covers roofs outside. last night I peeked through window, found snowflake but can't image a snow weather, nor 1t snow in Oct, 2012. It's harvest season, God, bring me sooner my Royal China, grant my son a kindle paperwhite ebook reader. God, see me my girls praying for me, for our promised future!

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original sunny Autumn.


weekend reunites.^ son visited my dorm on Friday night as usual. I just successfully connected our 2 notebooks via lan and played "borderlands 2" in co-op mode in his bedroom, so exciting. we ate KFC and toast beef. this dawn dreamed with son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, likely lives in Japan. son so cool &stylish universally and constantly. then situation turned adverse for us. we managed to trade colorful threads as our business. we got up early after i first woke up by pee. son played game after watched animation online in the morning. then we had breakfast in KFC. on way returning to his mom's house, he is anxious about how long i will stay there with him playing pc games. that's not clueless but evident. soon after we picked game, his mom burst into scorns on us, as the usual bitch. I left after gamed about an hour with my son in co-op of "borderlands 2". God, rid my son off unease with games load. show us more freedom at leisure. God, grant my son a ebook reader sooner, bring my Royal China to allow me home my dearest son, Hope of China, God of Universe.


among PRC mob.^ these days covert paid violent demonstration in China against Japanese shocked me. when i jogged last dusk i even felt killing thirst in face of personal threat from mobs, not to be victimized. till connected shameless PRC with world scope Islamic raid/surge, the desperate and last wade of darkness before void, I resumed peace in God dad. this dawn dreamed Chinese government, esp the Hu, manipulated more dark tools to harm my Royal China, which in brilliant destiny. I equipped my son new widgets, inc new namespaces, to defend our gaming and warring field. God, peace is the sunshine outside. bring my girls in those sunshine, God, bring our union in blood linkage upon deadlock I was beset. God, thanks for harmony so far in my life.


dreamed of ethnic life style. ^ Its all of bliss since I visit my son in last Friday. in dawn dream i witness an ethnic group in civil war or WWⅡ, their strange custom, inc sex and marriage, dream and death, their loyalty to their royal court. I dreamed their spiritual life moved me. God, son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 now in grade 2 and his mom, even herself a Junior English teacher of more than 10 years in the smothering orthodox Chinese parish, felt helpless upon our son's English study. empower son with confidence and independence in mastering English and Japanese, shed enlightenments in his school life with pragmatic or real life practice and engagement, with which i reckon as the most efficient way to learn any subject in referred, coincides with joys. God, let son staying with the Holy every moment! God, bring me my Royal China sooner, to allow me home my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe.


dreamed of home front defending with son.^ dreamed closely watched Hujintao, the leaving President of PRC, and his wife&'s living, inc a scenario on highway. then building defending poles/turrets with my frequent domain names, like faezrland, riveryog, etc. to defend our Empire with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 in the war. I also dreamed of campus canteen. It drizzled since dawn, adding more chill in the early Autumn. I find bliss in the rain again. God, bring us closer to family good news u promised. God, grant us an kindle ebook reader sooner!


dreamed of offering a preach.^ dreamed living in US, esp a twin city like Beijing&Tianjin. a community church invited me to join their carnival and arranged me to make a speech about my finding home in God, to believers mostly American Chinese. I then introduced my fight against adversity and God's help always in the way. It's a pale morning that's peaceful. God, bring my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, his long time wishlist, a Kindle paperwhite ebook reader. God, bring me sooner my Royal China, my girl Lv, Asoh Yukiko, girl Zhou, and my Taiwan girl who evade me so long.


dreamed of irrelevant or rampant.^ yesterday visit son for sunshine in dusk after 3 days' cloudy. I played "borderland" with son's companion and made great progress. son's mom kept driving me in debt of her, blaming gaming costs son's study time. i returned in drizzle and ate some toast on way near QRRS Dorm, thanks the holy. in dawn dreamed witnessing a genius professor, who ignore common social behavior to maintain his originality, when i worked in German university in the dream. God show me rich or plenty in rampant and irrelevant, in irregularity. I at once know the gift, the bliss among my examples regarded as challenge for mob in these chill days while my bare clothes still welcome the leaving summer. God, bring changes to my life so far praying. bring my girls, my sons and daughters in coming Royal China! God, u see the thanksgiving.


a long dreamed about handling ethnic worship. ^ yesterday I first time tried to fix a Clavus on my left smallest toe with hot water, in aim to play soccer with my son in the coming Autumn freely. this dawn dreamed being in heavy ethnic area, like Xinjinag, northwestern China, co-worked with a kid and his parent, witness their worship & magic. in the end they prepared and migrated their idol, like a huge white cake, to new mosque, after many curses, condemns against interference by PRC, and during many dark spells. also dreamed in my hometown new hospital built and lots of witchery in local community. a middle school alumni, likely in family name Tao, and a QRRS colleague once worked as Communist Youth League secretary, appeared in the dream. the secretary attempted to promote the Tao to a new position on social ladder in another big city. I managed to rescue my storage in QRRS' hostel while the Tao along me among guests of the hotel, whose dinners always rich for foreigners . Its cloudy now, even likely drizzled. God, yesterday I lost temper when my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, lingered and loathed to leave pc game. God, save our happy time in games, save my Royal China among adversity. God, u see the promised land in title Zhu's under ur shine. thx for ur grace, Dad.

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mild late summer sunshine echoes complacency in 2012.


son, warrenzh first time played soccer for more than an hour. ^ yesterday is a full sunny day. I, the proudest father, visited my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 after lunch in QRRS in-factory canteen. I bought him his favorite KFC food. we tried again our new xbox wireless gamepad with a new pc game, "Damage Inc", and enjoyed flying in jet. later we hanged outside, joined a dad and his son playing soccer on nearby sports yard. son never ran and kick so long but still energetic in near 2 hours. I myself enjoyed body practice rarely in decades. this morning i dreamed bringing son visit somewhere, and introduced son's teeth rotation. when warrenzh opened his month, i found the only front teeth hanging lonely and dropping anytime. God, allow me sports more with my son, equipping him a new sport shoes. God, bring change to my life with my girls!


dreamed of sex tour with girl Liu, my once Nankai Univ. girl friend. ^yesterday I visit son celebrating harvest of new pc games from web. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, told me the xbox wireless gamepad we ordered online together in my dorm last Friday night arrived. we narrowly tried 2 games after i fix driver problem &settled the gear. when i returned to my QRRS dorm, Its 9:02pm. in dawn dreamed of my Nankai Univ. alumnus Liu, a girl with whom I had been in love for more than 2 years before broke up when we graduated. we traveled and made love in the dawn dream. finally we visit an American family whose the mom absent, but a father and his son. i dreamed making love with the Liu there till woke up. Its a sunny and peaceful morning. God, u know how I longing for love and making love, bring me rich rain and tender love in my life so long praying. God, bring me Royal China sooner!


our game experience will enhanced by new xbox wireless gamepad. ^ we had bought a cheap xbox gamepad which cost ¥90, but it soon ill-working. even recently our gaming desire wading in growth of years, but I, the proudest father, still suggested to equip us with a new wireless gamepad. my dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, admitted it. It's a hard month, for my pinching finance hardly support it. but last night we narrowly settled the order online, and hopefully we can find funs with the new gift among our pc games. It's sad to hear from web news that pirate pc games deeply hurt game makers, who brought us so many happy time and I even encouraged my son's career interests in the industry. God, merits save itself. world plenty and meaningfulness in the beautiful binary domain, digital games. God, bring prosperity into the educational while entertaining product, sustain smart minds in the industry and their good fortune from fruitful workload! God, let's witness ur glory and grace in my son, warrenzh's childhood engagement or activities. God, see me my Royal China, my girl Lv, my crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, my girl zhou with which I still linked with the company my nest inside so far stable, and my Taiwan girl who evade me for more than half year. God, u see all these.


dreamed of being in love with a girl in my hometown Zhudajiu village. ^ the girl named Zhufengtao. when I studied in elite Huanggao senor middle school, in vacations my mother brought me to visit her at her parents' house in Zhudajiu village. later she also graduated and worked in Shenzhen, made good fortune and help her parents rebuilt their house in the village, while her 2 brothers likely less fortunate, both cargo driver and one even kept single in his 40s. her father once a worker in the county town, and befriend me when I was a student. in dream I had warm heart in chasing his daughter. Its a peaceful morning. God, u see how I prepared myself for my coming Royal China. God, bring change into my life so far fruitful.


dreamed of alumni of my senior middle school. ^ in dawn dreamed of Huanggang senior middle school alumni gathered when our brotherhood still strong. dreamed they help each other among the meeting. late dozed, dreamed along a cargo team from southwestern China, battled with road troopers. also dreamed myself fought with young beast extorted on my privacy. It's a sunny morning. God, bring changes to my life so far here praying for my girls and my bestowed land from my ancestor with glory.


dreamed travel with son against his grandma. ^ dreamed mother of my ex-wife plotted with her daughter against my intimacy with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲. I, benzrad 朱子卓, insisted touring with them. in a hotel they prepared dinner while kept eyes upon us, I led my son and his dozens pals exploring tunnels of the hotel till returned successfully to the dinner. God, u see my struggle to father my dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe. God, bring my Royal China sooner and allow me catering to my sons, esp my first son warrenzh, a better life. God, see me and my girls our being intact among adversity exerted by enemies of new China Empire that will live 1109 years under title of Zhu's. God, thanks for ur promise allowing me visit my son with great gifts, in these days and future.


dreamed of teeth rotation. ^ dreamed with son visit a car show, where we take part in eating hamburger contest. when I comparing teeth with my son: his teeth grow mature, while one of my teeth, very small and young, dropped upon shaking.

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more colorful gaming experience with enhancement of new LED TV.


dreamed of Japanese divided China again.^ a dawn dream look like pale morning now: China was half controlled by Japan. i traveled and felt its ruling as an interpretor, while Chinese part under CCP dooming lifeless. God, Asoh Yukiko, bring my new family, new Royal China sooner!


thx God, son now enjoys larger LED TV.^ we ordered online from Haier's official shopping mall. for its logistic unit likely doesn't reside Qiqihar, our goods delayed and arrived today. we had already exchanged more than 5 phone calls for the e-commercial site didn't respond after my payment settled. today they also cost 2 and more phone calls for changed shipping time. my last query to its support desk didn't get a clear answer but i felt bliss in the sunshine, which encourages me waiting near my son's mom's house even clueless about the postponed handover time around 11am. they indeed arrived soon after 11am while i roaming and praying God for the shiny gift in the shiny day. installation quite smoothly. what surprised me is that gear to hang the TV on wall is free. i had informed son's mom about borrowing her a small amount money to buy the hanging parts. my son glad to see the new gadget but i merely got familiar with its user interface before his departure for his school. his mom got angry as usual and urged son coming school time. all the afternoon i alone setup the TV as second display of son's Dell notebook, for gaming and online video. after settled down, i missing my son very much. i even proposed a dine out to his mom, who posed to refuse but finally arranged it. son ate toast mutton more than usual. i carried him on my shoulders to go his mom's home. after finished his homeworks his mom administrated, we played 2 pc games and found how adorable a gear, like the 32' inch LED TV, can be. when i leaving, i encouraged my son use Internet daily based and he admitted it. on way to my QRRS dorm, i called back expressing sorry for my scorning his habit to stand close to the TV even its screen size should allow looser watching for the sake of his sight. Its just too beautiful today, God, u see it.


dosed in sunshine in a snow melting day.^ yesterday i first time in the year roamed in QRRS Dorms' garden, review enemies of my Empire of China, and their newest trapdoor of asylum. in my latest visit, on first work day after lunar Tomb-Sweeping holiday when i attempted to buy medicine of Risperdal, dog in the municipal mental health center already barked with teeth. dogs rampant around trembled upon my joys in life and hatred of envies burning their brains. last night a shallow snow descended without foretoken. when i woke up lately in morning sunshine through window, those white wet on ground show me so many fondness of Holy. afternoon after lunch, i felt cold again and soon dozed in sunshine from window on my bed. i dreamed my passed mother entreated me to endure for survival. a woman colleague, a Wu, with his husband, a Liu, unbalanced with their fortunes in the dream, liked when we played on the bank of a river.
God, grace in my road to reclaim my Kingdom of China from my ancestor with glory is huge, here my pray for u for testimony.


dreamed of quarrel over family heritage.^ dreamed of financial disturb with my hometown neighbor who makes a small business from performing as priest for local villagers' call for God in their nature faith. my passed mom, with my sinful 2nd brother also appeared in the dawn dream. after woke up doubting the plot of my nephew who demand his poor dad, my 1st brother long time weak in finance and recently attempted to ask loan from me, preparing his engagement&celebration. something dangerous falling&failing. reviewed curse from son's mom, a bitch, last night when we played pc game, burned and reborn in preach from bible radio online till mercy saves my pains. God, sooner bring me my Royal China, my girls praying for me, for our family. show my son warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, bliss in my new life, my new family with my girls full heartedly, to witness falling and failure of his mom, the sinful soul and her old dirty family. God, sing u in the sunshine now outside.


A March snow, a white present.^ yesterday is a brewing day for me when i waiting aside my notebook. it had been cloudy days, which brought me doubts and anxiousness. a morning frost indicating the snow, but until stronger sandstorm brought down the sight, it descends. looking outside through my dorm window, i felt my dearest son's call of gift in the dripping snowflakes. even almost penniless, i managed to borrow ¥40 from the canteen operator, who more or less cold-shoulder to me, for its 3rd times i asked for loan in a month. last week i decided to buy my son a larger LCD TV for his weakening eyesight, for our more appealing pc gaming experience. i asked my 2nd sister to loan us, she admitted but delayed to her next salary release day, IE, Apr 1st. my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, welcome the gift heartedly. in the dusk, with his favorite KFC food in handbag, i waited for him alone the street near his mom's school for half hour. i sang and teased him when we reunited and returned to his mom's house. we didn't play pc game as usual, for time of gathering too short the moment. in the night after returned to my QRRS dorm, i saw golden skylight all over out of my window. God, doesn't it exactly free me of sorrow and unease?

benzrad's comment on the day.

sinking PRC.^ sink, sink sinful PRC, as a due pay for benefit western world brought forth and saves so many disasters in the totalitarian system likes a half century nightmare.


dreamed of a worm or snake in my shits. ^ got up earlier to let d/l, then dozed. dreamed of poo. then found a worm in it&doubting if parasites in my body. then 3 men expert in hunting snakes plot and steal my snake. its a sunny morning.


a prayer in new moon, for grace in God.^ now 2nd new moon night in March. rid me anxiousness of dearest son's healthy environment, inc emotional. God, Asoh Yukiko, affirm me the sanity of my Royal China, as well as the nice day on which i prayed for our gathering again between the weeks. grant us sooner our new LCD, for our better gaming experience and warrenzh's joy of watching. God, u see these days young beasts around us, in the rotten and sinking PRC. only u save our untouchable grace, brightest dream since my ancestor's Empire half millennium ago.

God, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, now u under custody of ur mom's. in this night, she, a mean bitch, arbitrarily banned me talk u later than 8:30pm, defied my 2 buzz in moments ago, but i know ur heart in the air, in the inseparable connect in Holy Spirit in any moment. let's dream deeper and purer in moonlight tonight, in bliss from Zhu's root, and stream of glories.

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beams that's warm, in the light season.


dreamed of my being Israeli and contesting with Bill Gates family.^ last night visit son even his mom want it next day instead of the brillant day, for her duty in her school. I told son I changed my judge, claiming visiting him is my best gift from Heaven and the brightest moment in my life, not previously urged him waiting for my good news of arriving presents. in dawn dreamed my family, inc my parents and dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, is an Israeli family. we traveled and competed with Bill Gates' family in showtime. then in war time and we fought hard to survive the war field. lots of loving moments of team in the march in dream. Its a sunny morning even sun ray not so strong.


family traveld&dined out.^ thx God, with improved salary, I proposed son to dine toast buffet locally bimonthly and he admits. I think it will meaning we stay together alone from his mom's companion as commonly from now on. but as its first implement this time, and his mom help us seek group coupon online, so we invited her. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, ate less in the popular restaurant but in happy time. we managed to shoot photos there, with aid from a kind woman on neighbor seat. before the lunch, we traveled Qiqihar Peace Square, exactly other on the western part of the city from my QRRS dorm. son giggling a lot, even his mom got angers as usual after I held no brief upon her clumsily using our camera. this week I can't rid myself anxiousness with my pinched purse, but faith from Holy saves me from upset the gathering when dearest son enlightened so much. his mom likely strikes to re-zip the family, but that doomed to fail. my sailing out for my girls, for my Royal China, on solider concrete than any before. God, bring son his kindle reader sooner, and enrich his holy spirit even more!


recent extended morning sleeps.^ recent weekends enjoy more satisfying pc gaming with son, aided by his new powerful dell notebook. the air in this season really refreshing, we also enjoyed happy talks when we hanged out at noon. I also enjoyed movies made by BBC adapted from classic English literature. they really the potential limestone that brings forth recent world history full of mercy and glories influenced by English. I saw God's deed and Holy message reflects among the epics consists of real life of English society. however, recently I felt more exhausted on bed, and late sleep in mornings. I dreamed more in these lingerings on bed in dawn. I also felt more sex drive with bare sleepcoat on bed alone. God, isn't my girls approaching closer, isn't my new family emerging solider? God, my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, recent referred several times that promised gift, a kindle reader with color e-ink, in his passionate expectation, bring us the gift, grant sooner my Royal of China on the scary land under title of my ancestor half millennium ago in shape sooner. God, affirm tender heart of my son, exactly yourself, with broader view of ur universe, ur galaxy. God, dad, put prayers in our family that forever grows, esp in this growing season. thx God, in ur grace! God, its now a milky pale morning, but I know bliss in every mouth nodding the Son and his family this beginning of day.


happy weekends as usual, but not without anxiousness.^ last Friday night my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, ported in my QRRS dorm. we gamed on my acer notebook and snacked. next morning we ate breakfast in nearby KFC, which so nice. the following weekends we immersed in pc games till his mom pushed my departure. this night in dorm, my heart full of bliss and thanks. Its second night with newest moon in the month. I praying smoothly next weekend we can dine in toast buffet restaurant, Golden Hans buffet. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, really didn't enjoy delicacy too much, I hope surprise him in the western style restaurant. God, my ancestor, Emperor of Ming Dynasty, bless us the joyful moment.


dreamed of passed mom in dawn. ^ last night went to bed earlier. got up later this morning, after lingering dream in which my passed mother managing our old family. its sunny now, but missing my son, who also want more gaming time with me. God, let's us reunion more meaningful! let our coming dinning out richer!


dreamed of death hunting in asylum.^ dreamed trapped again in mental hospital, plot of murder including doctors, state intelligent agents, against me and my son. a Uygur girl wardmate, also in the exile or jailbreak. God, thx for the Holy message. pl see my visit next month to the hospital peacefully.

From 2012 now stays unbeatable
From 2012 now stays unbeatable
From 2012 now stays unbeatable
From 2012 on the way to rejoin

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dearest son with his dearest 1st notebook, a dell Inspiron.


full game time in the day.^ Its a sunny day all time. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, immersed in pc game, "dungeon defender", till his dad, benzrad 朱子卓, felt exhausted several times before halt to weekly showering in nearby public spa. i tried to blog the event, son's elation with his first gear for his entertainment and education, a dell Inspiron 15R, but last dusk we too busy to shoot photos. now with his mom's help, our gaming moment captured here. thx God, son still enjoy my companion in his rapid growth. in lunch outside, i warn his grandma's dirty taste in Chinese CCTV's law channel and her attempts to attract him when she was entrusted by her daughter, whose teaching term launched, attending him in his winter vacation, i urged him live in sole one and free of anxious and indisputable. in street light on way returning to my QRRS dorm, i felt so relaxed and hopeful tomorrow.


son's first notebook, a dell Inspiron N5110 or Ins15RD-889.^ the long waited good news arrived today: son's first notebook we ordered online arrived. baby buzzed me just when i felt sleepy in the morning. when i reached his mom's community, a police car leaving and an cheap tricycle ported outside of the gate, and son's mom coming toward. i had expected dell support staff will installed indoor, but not the case. all the day i busy with letting son sooner enjoy pc games on it, and we did, as to me, its really amazing. but warrenzh 朱楚甲, dearest son, likely felt flat when i trying modify router's setting accordingly and customizing google chrome browser's setting to include his local bookmarks search engines. when i settled in QRRS dorm and buzzed him about notebook bag we ordered near noon with his companion, he ordered me not to buzz him today any more. God, i know time to make room for his independence turns urgent, still i trust ur Mighty to allow our together moment full of joys and peace. God, last night i rumbled indoor till the dawn. in this earthy world i trust nothing but Holy Spirit. save my Royal in graceful One. that's ur gift today shows me. thx, God, dad.


determination after Valentine Day. ^hold no brief for the bitch, once and forever. step out of shadows of the sinful family more steadily, leading dearest son, Hope of ChinaGod of Universewarrenzh 朱楚甲, in brilliant torch. lessen dependency, including chores like washing and temporary shelter when gaming with son, on the evil hands, which desperately attempted to cling to my glorious family. let son, warrenzh, enjoy his new dell notebook independently. see him out off the dirty cave/cage of his mom's. God, u see the fall of the demon, let me more cautious upon the shames under sunshine, let my girls' praying for me, my Royal China's sanity, clearer under ur shiny sky.
God, let me determined today, stopping the sin around my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲. grant me decisiveness and strength in unalienable action ahead. God, u never miss me any Holy message to respond with iron fist and most balanced judge, and in the witness of my people to come.


son's dell game desktop, promised Heavenly.

since the looming lunar year end of 2011 passed our love and passions. i, benzrad 朱子卓, the dad, managed to encourage dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲Hope of ChinaGod of Universe, live bright without his new gear God promised in the year. so far so good till last Saturday he buzzed in when i surfing in my QRRS dorm that his legacy desktop can't boot up itself. after tried means to restore on the pc, i felt i can't afford to fix the wrecked machine cost efficiently. i reviewed the situation awhile aside my son, then made the choice to borrow to buy him a new one as promised previously but postponed by the poorest bonus in 4 sequential years from QRRS, my once and long time employer, to ¥1000 dispatched by my ditched office pals instead of ¥5000 expected, and usual handing off by departmental cashier woman. my son admits my proposal, so i launched. its not a smooth journey but i managed to reach. so far, my nephew-in-law, one of my college alumni, a QRRS pal allow loan to me. China surveillance showily broke amid twice when i attempted to borrow from a girl alumni. after all, God, u see the grin in void of sky, u show me the love in my people and lasting homeland.

Its sunny since i woke up lately. a shallow snow dropping since the day before lunar lantern day, ie. yesterday. the holiday brings 2 good news of grant of loan for son's new dell game desktop. i saw no reason defying us the rest amount for the longing after gift in the beginning of 2012. so, God, let's rolling out and tuck up.


dreams.^ in dawn dream my passed dad, God in Heaven now, bestow me his grand backyard garden. missing my son all the morning. in noon nap dreamed resting on my campus bed preparing my entrance exam. one of my alumni, Wu, whose academic scores usually better than B, lingered there, too. in half-conscious found myself again reviewing my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's situation. he grows so smart that dirty hearts from his mom's family, as well as enemies of, my Empire of China ahead for 1109 years under shine of YHWY, hated relentless. God, u show me the light, u show us affirmatives. pl bring my son his seasonal gifts, a dell game desktop and a e-reader. my Royal of China, my girls praying for our new family descending, please bestow to me now.


dream of my holy family.^ my passed parents in my dream urged me to make new friends again. i prepared son, warrenzh, who in his tournament, to pass his exam ahead in a hotel.its sunny now.


worm ate my flesh again in dream. ^dreamed in a classroom. found a worm eating my flesh in its herpes on my palm or feet. decided to cut it out with clipper but my alumni strongly warned of risk of infection. i determined to act then woke up.

From 2012 now stays unbeatable
From 2012 now stays unbeatable
From 2012 on the way to rejoin
From snow&winter 2011, among growing global warming

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