dearest son with his dearest 1st notebook, a dell Inspiron.

18/2/2012

full game time in the day.^ Its a sunny day all time. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, immersed in pc game, "dungeon defender", till his dad, benzrad 朱子卓, felt exhausted several times before halt to weekly showering in nearby public spa. i tried to blog the event, son's elation with his first gear for his entertainment and education, a dell Inspiron 15R, but last dusk we too busy to shoot photos. now with his mom's help, our gaming moment captured here. thx God, son still enjoy my companion in his rapid growth. in lunch outside, i warn his grandma's dirty taste in Chinese CCTV's law channel and her attempts to attract him when she was entrusted by her daughter, whose teaching term launched, attending him in his winter vacation, i urged him live in sole one and free of anxious and indisputable. in street light on way returning to my QRRS dorm, i felt so relaxed and hopeful tomorrow.

16/2/2012

son's first notebook, a dell Inspiron N5110 or Ins15RD-889.^ the long waited good news arrived today: son's first notebook we ordered online arrived. baby buzzed me just when i felt sleepy in the morning. when i reached his mom's community, a police car leaving and an cheap tricycle ported outside of the gate, and son's mom coming toward. i had expected dell support staff will installed indoor, but not the case. all the day i busy with letting son sooner enjoy pc games on it, and we did, as to me, its really amazing. but warrenzh 朱楚甲, dearest son, likely felt flat when i trying modify router's setting accordingly and customizing google chrome browser's setting to include his local bookmarks search engines. when i settled in QRRS dorm and buzzed him about notebook bag we ordered near noon with his companion, he ordered me not to buzz him today any more. God, i know time to make room for his independence turns urgent, still i trust ur Mighty to allow our together moment full of joys and peace. God, last night i rumbled indoor till the dawn. in this earthy world i trust nothing but Holy Spirit. save my Royal in graceful One. that's ur gift today shows me. thx, God, dad.

15/2/2012

determination after Valentine Day. ^hold no brief for the bitch, once and forever. step out of shadows of the sinful family more steadily, leading dearest son, Hope of China, God of Universe, warrenzh 朱楚甲, in brilliant torch. lessen dependency, including chores like washing and temporary shelter when gaming with son, on the evil hands, which desperately attempted to cling to my glorious family. let son, warrenzh, enjoy his new dell notebook independently. see him out off the dirty cave/cage of his mom's. God, u see the fall of the demon, let me more cautious upon the shames under sunshine, let my girls' praying for me, my Royal China's sanity, clearer under ur shiny sky.
God, let me determined today, stopping the sin around my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲. grant me decisiveness and strength in unalienable action ahead. God, u never miss me any Holy message to respond with iron fist and most balanced judge, and in the witness of my people to come.

7/2/2012

son's dell game desktop, promised Heavenly.

since the looming lunar year end of 2011 passed our love and passions. i, benzrad 朱子卓, the dad, managed to encourage dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, live bright without his new gear God promised in the year. so far so good till last Saturday he buzzed in when i surfing in my QRRS dorm that his legacy desktop can't boot up itself. after tried means to restore on the pc, i felt i can't afford to fix the wrecked machine cost efficiently. i reviewed the situation awhile aside my son, then made the choice to borrow to buy him a new one as promised previously but postponed by the poorest bonus in 4 sequential years from QRRS, my once and long time employer, to ￥1000 dispatched by my ditched office pals instead of ￥5000 expected, and usual handing off by departmental cashier woman. my son admits my proposal, so i launched. its not a smooth journey but i managed to reach. so far, my nephew-in-law, one of my college alumni, a QRRS pal allow loan to me. China surveillance showily broke amid twice when i attempted to borrow from a girl alumni. after all, God, u see the grin in void of sky, u show me the love in my people and lasting homeland.

Its sunny since i woke up lately. a shallow snow dropping since the day before lunar lantern day, ie. yesterday. the holiday brings 2 good news of grant of loan for son's new dell game desktop. i saw no reason defying us the rest amount for the longing after gift in the beginning of 2012. so, God, let's rolling out and tuck up.

2/2/2012

dreams.^ in dawn dream my passed dad, God in Heaven now, bestow me his grand backyard garden. missing my son all the morning. in noon nap dreamed resting on my campus bed preparing my entrance exam. one of my alumni, Wu, whose academic scores usually better than B, lingered there, too. in half-conscious found myself again reviewing my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's situation. he grows so smart that dirty hearts from his mom's family, as well as enemies of, my Empire of China ahead for 1109 years under shine of YHWY, hated relentless. God, u show me the light, u show us affirmatives. pl bring my son his seasonal gifts, a dell game desktop and a e-reader. my Royal of China, my girls praying for our new family descending, please bestow to me now.

30/1/2012

dream of my holy family.^ my passed parents in my dream urged me to make new friends again. i prepared son, warrenzh, who in his tournament, to pass his exam ahead in a hotel.its sunny now.

29/1/2012

worm ate my flesh again in dream. ^dreamed in a classroom. found a worm eating my flesh in its herpes on my palm or feet. decided to cut it out with clipper but my alumni strongly warned of risk of infection. i determined to act then woke up.

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bell rings for new family ahead in late Autumn sunray.

27/10/2011

God breaks me and slow my rhythm for full joy of life.^now is pale morning with frost in air. last night I planned to overnight download a pc game but near 9pm the lan in QRRS Dorms suddenly halted down. for I concentrated in pc gaming, and I also don't have much pals in the dorm to inquiry the cause, so I let it to resume automatically. but it didn't. I woke up near 4am and yet failed to fix it, likely the Internet access rule on the router changed. then I tried to sort recent photos, esp some of warrenzh 朱楚甲's works in last weekends in nearby park of his mom's house. God, u see how I enjoy the downstream from world of democratic, how the rotting PRC killing itself in incompatible and incompetent among new world's unleashed fresh era of collision and rebuild, inc riots in Libya or Chinese western neighbors, years of liberation theology re-track. God, allow my girls see clearer my joys in them, in every moment if our live together. rip them doubts and closer our backyard retreat in time. God, what I promised my girls u granted never changes. Royal of China in 1109 years in future arise dauntless brilliance. God, forever guide my life and faith!

15/10/2011

my sweet, a tall girl, first time appears in my dream lives me together.^last night peeking eyes pierced the relation between my son and me, the trinity, for quite some time. I had to buzz son second time to talk himself while first call received by his mom and rebuffed by son upon my message of the new half full moon first time in sky since the month. we enjoyed the direct conversation in air. in dawn I dreamed living with my sweet, a tall girl I can't point out either my girl Zhou or my Taiwan girl or my other beloved praying for me, we make a living by collecting rubbish, among some other pals in the same business on a huge wasteland. when we return to market or our habitation, a student sought through our collection and bought one old book. peace in my mind when I live with my tall girl, who first time appears in my living life, in the dream when dealing routine life. then dreamed of baby son, warrenzh, God of Universe, Hope of China, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, again full of affirmatives. that reminds me an old game we recently reviewed, "Wall-E", which depicted current human habitation will turn into desert and dump. I got up a bit later, trying to describe the holy message and blog it while the sunshine outside turning warmer and brighter. God, my heart for my girls, with whom we unite in one, never open. pl grant our new family, Royal China, sooner during our prime light. God, even my salary improved to ￥2300 two months ago, with which I quite felt satisfying, still I pray u grant my son, warrenzh, a new dell game desktop in this year end by bonus! God, let down the insane spying around the holy family, and glory forever to U!

5/10/2011

dreamed visiting my parents' tombs in my hometown.^yesterday full of bliss. Holy message let me review sinister plot by son, warrenzh's mother's family in her kid sister's wedding ceremony. I felt trembling in angry. after a full load of work online&offline, I visited son after withdrew some of my new salary, which, thx God, increased to near ￥2400/month. I bought son some KFC he likes. I had to buzz his mom&waited some time for they just haunting outside. the woman again shown greediness and evil attempts to infringe my financial independence. she event threatened depriving my privilege to visit my son. this dawn I dreamed visiting my hometown, Zhudajiu, central China. 2 village folks, 朱洪全 and 朱中旺, accompanied me and introduced changes in the village. when I saw my parents' tombs, I felt pains in mourning, esp for my mother who informed her elapsing days before her end of life. my grandpa's tomb close to that of my dad, God in Heaven now. in the magic retrospect/glimpse, I know I am among my siblings the best heir that inherit my dad's merits and mindset, also well as his mission&vision on the earth. Its a brilliant sunny morning now. God, u save.

20/9/2011

dreamed of the Son and righteous of God.^dreamed of the most traditional business of Chinese society, bodyguard. in the beginning, I worked for a Chinese martial coaching club and witness it wax and wade. then dreamed Portuguese took over the business. the boss is mighty and stern, in the end of its doom day, his staff, mostly Chinese, betrayed him and even trying profaning his most beloved kid girl. I saw God's message and demonstration so clear that I felt saved after woke up.

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harvest season sends son, warrenzh, into his first school term.

19/9/2011

a lengthy dream in dawn about manipulation between QRRS authority and me.^first dreamed of the authority of QRRS, my once and long time employer, attempted to shape my way by contacts. then dreamed a staff of the communist youth league of QRRS editing my novel I submitted for a composition competition. then he turned into a girl of my hometown village, trying being friend me. when i woke up, its a warm and bright morning. its monday before National Day of PRC. i gathered my recent records for the publish for promising on horizon in new light. God, now its cloudy in the afternoon, bring my girls my love and promise. bring our warm family sooner!

18/9/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

doomed Chinese engineers and IT industry, with their inherited demon.

also hell with PRC. core sin is the fake atheism, socialism imported from old crap of Russia and Germany. sinful engineers nowadays still an ally of communist partisan, all innocent Chinese will laugh with tears on the day the wrecked sunk shabby construction drains the last dirty and dark conglomerates on China mainland, the scarred land since the fall of Ming Dynasty, a treasure of my ancestor in title Zhu.
benzrad, the Son, here attest the fate of China as an Empire reset in his title for 1109 years in future.

为什么中国的程序员技术偏低 - cnBeta.COM

首先来说一个高级程序员并非靠自己读几本书写几万行代码就能练就的，我更关注于低层的环境，也就是程序员实实在在的工作环境。因为程序员的高低还得从实际的工作来衡量，而非其它。所以我想说的是，中国的软件公司的性质直接导致程序员的水平的高低。而我所说的软件公司，不是指某个或者某几个，而是指主流的软件公司，大众型的软件公司。所以我希望那些已经步入一个理想的公司的程序员理解我这篇文章的定位

14/9/2011

dreamed of my youngest elder sister.yesterday full of bliss. but darkness in son's mom's heart, esp. her greediness really annoyed me when I in need or financially pinched by short term short of currency these days. long time i made it i will never look back into her life or business, and indeed avoided her dirt and trouble since our divorce. after some reviews, i decided not to encounter her sinister plots. this morning God woke me up earlier, shoot a photo of the early full moon through my window in dawn light. then napped again. dreamed in my kid elder sister's house. i love her very much and she did so back. when i busy with preparing my son something, she was electrically shocked by wrecked socket on wall. Its a touchingly milk washing shiny Autumn morning, thx God.

13/9/2011

dreamed of being sieged by mob&cheating government.^ last night restless on bed. in the dawn dreamed in campus mistakenly ate a street vendor's food and hijacked into government agent for judge. a man and a woman dubiously trying to settle our conflict, but just cheating and profiting for the troubled water. after the vendors, in first look a couple but according the agency's message the man is a hooligan member charging to rent their protection, left me, and the agent attempted to make deal with me, i was sieged by mop of Chinese on way escaping. its a pale morning now. God, u see all the sins around me, the Son and his Royal of China. God, killing likely brewing but intact is the heart of loving. God, let's do it, for changes in new years and grace in new lives.

12/9/2011

sunny mid-Autumn holiday.^these days engaged myself with full load of d/l of games, and most of moments with baby son full of joy of playing these beautiful softwares and visions it carries. this morning baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, buzzed in when i still lately napping, urged me visit him sooner to join pc games. its a extraordinary warm Autumn day, also lunar Mid-Autumn holiday, so i can lingered with son most of the holiday which exactly means gathering for traditional Chinese. the grandma prepared lunch. son ate more than usual, after we broke gameplay for the dinner. his mom still busy with her pupils, while we made progress in pc game "garteling gears", a favorite for armored robotic combat fans like us, after many sweating failures. when his mom urged my leaving for they are going shopping outside, son refused my kissing his cheek but obviously relaxed by those games we played together all the morning. on bus and in QRRS dorm, when i facing my computer alone, sorrow debt to my girls haunting me again. i know my girls' willing my messages and our promised family. so i blogged again here after so much contented weeks and nights by my son's companion&visit, including those beautiful pc games. God, u know how i expect change in my life prepared for my girls, for my Royal of China as an Empire reset for 1109 years ahead, under glorious family name Zhu's, a resume to brilliant history since Ming Dynasty, built from scratch by Zhu Yuanzhang, my legendary ancestor. God, u know how my heart weighted by missing and soaring thirsts for my girls in praying our union in our promised lavish wedding ceremony. God, u know all these is the fate of one Chinese of one China under ur shine, never seen grace and glory.
so here again, wind of cool and clear and blessing, brings my girls my word, my heart never close for their perfume, their shiny descending, my way to the throng never evades my girls' companion. my dearest, just let the Mighty angels clear barriers and pave the carpet for greater grace in our coming lives. i missing u and forging ever stronger linkage among us every moments in my suffering here as God trains. brave heart save u, my dearest!

5/9/2011

dreamed of my grand dad who is serious in dawn.^dreamed I lingered in a poor countryside latrine pit when I napped while downloading in this shinny morning. my kid brother was brought by our dad, who is serious, from his recent diarrhea and still let him half bent his waist when walking, with his baggage on back, to sent him away to fetch his national college entrance exam score from his school. my brother told me he will bring my teenage friend to accompany me, but I didn't respond but just wondering my lost item in the shits pool. dad shown his loving me in dream.

21/8/2011

Pray for ever-green energy among the Holy.^ warm sunny afternoon. God, bring me fresh monuments in our gatherings among son, warrenzh's budding life. free me off trifle and meaningless rush against orthodox smothering in PRC's mainstream now. God, see ur untouchable glory in our eyes. son, warrenzh, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, now in his mom's hometown journey, blesses him fortune of lightning heart and deep insight.

benzrad conversation in cyberspace on the day.

benzrad zhu Aug 9, 2011 (edited)

in north, esp northeastern China, dogs rampant. they r the main source of mafia and dog system in nowadays PRC government.: RT: 同样是沿海城市，面对PX时大连和厦门的表现截然不同。

Kaurana Nathalie Merle much divine energy to you in china!   8:11 AM (edited)

benzrad zhu thx, surely my happiest moment is in one with the Holy.   10:21 AM

Kaurana Nathalie Merle :)))))   3:43 PM

Kaurana Nathalie Merle could you explain dog system? thank you :) hope you have a lovely day....4:15 PM (edited)

benzrad zhu  cops and bureaucracy, and undermined fake representations in governing or constitution bought from Red Revolution near a century ago, both prey common civilian in totalitarian nations, by monopolizing their gangsters (as an obvious characteristic of dog, on the contrary Christian prefers solitary redemption from God.), separating&dissolving normal social bandage into docile individuals, for the sake of their massive abuse of sole state power.   4:35 PM

19/8/2011

a dream in dawn in which my dad, now in Heaven, stayed with me longest.^Yesterday I tried to unlocked my 163 and qq blog blocked under censorship by China surveillance. in the process I asked one of my qq online contacts to help me verify my mending at same time. the bitchy site owner also in my family name Zhu, irritated me with his narrow acid spying mind, so we exchanged some stingy words. the sky darkened since them. after dinner I risked raining to jog out routinely. when I passed my ditched office, it turned sunny again. so I dropped in the office and found the employer dispatching a suite for its staff and I was not evaded. brought the gift I packed to visit my son, just after our Tuesdays' visit when son called me to rid him of the sinful grandma's custody while his mom occupied by her school duty. this dawn dreamed I competed soccer with QRRS pals team, with my family. then my passed dad, God in Heaven now, serving me for most time when I enjoyed delicacy while sat atop a cliff waiting for my son's visit. my dad contented&smiled with full hearts' joys all time. its now a sunny morning and I know God's promising. God, bring my girls sooner into our new marriages. let son sooner enjoy his new dell game desktop. let me treat son with his pals with buffet in new holiday ahead. God, dad, I love u. this my gratefulness in witness of Asoh Yukiko, my Queens of Royal China from Japan.

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